mandey's world

so today i realized that i've been MIA for a while. oops. when it's been like four days since i've seen certain people, that's just craziness. so i would like to apologize for well...not being here really. and i'll also take this time to apologize in advance for not being around the next week or so. lol. tomorrow...well tonight, will be my social life. after that, i, for the most part, will be studying and writing til i don't know what's reality anymore. have this dumb research paper to write. i know i shouldn't whine too much b/c some people have worse amount to write. an 8-10 pg. paper sounds ok, but when you're me, it's not and then add not being able to bs the paper at all and that's just not something to deal with. then trig. oh trig. in my opinion everyone in my class deserves an A for putting up with him. he confuses the heck out of everyone. just have to pass the final and look at making a grade replacement later i guess. i don't know about anyone else but this semester has been a roller coaster..one of those that tosses you around every which way. don't get me wrong, everything's been awesome..the life and all, but the school...the grades...umm...yea..not so much. well break time's over..back to work i must go.

today reminded me of what my mom always tells me..."life's not fair, so deal with it." can't and won't explain it all. astronomy test kicked me to the curb but i wasn't alone on that one..several of us felt that way about the test. not a lot going on around here except that i just can't do this english paper and as punishment to myself i will be working on it instead of battle of the bands. a couple of weeks and it'll all be done for a while...later all.

seriously..i've had my fair share of it and it just isn't all that fabulous. yes, it's like 3am and i am up and not planning on hitting the pillow anytime soon. yep. may have something to do with that 3 hr nap i took earlier but do i care? uh no! don't know why i am writting this entry. i shouldn't be allowed on the computer this late at night..i get way too restless.

ok, i am sitting here at my computer and i am looking at my board at one of the poems i dissected last year. too bad can't get the cool pic of it on here. Stevie Smith is, in my opinion, a really awesome poet. and what's interesting about her is that she draws a pic to go with her poems more than half the time. oh how i want a book of her collection of poetry..maybe i'll spoil myself sometime;) the meanings could be taken in many directions as everyone in my senior english ap class will be the first to point out. anywho, this seems to be a poem of the moment or actually the one that made me really like her work:

Not Waving but Drowning

Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.

Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead
It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,
They said.

Oh, no no no, it was too cold always
(still the dead one lay moaning)
I was much too far out all my life
And not waving but drowning.

--Stevie Smith

well should be doing other things but ha..right. this semester is kicking me around way too much. can't wait til the only thing i have to do is roll out of bed and on the couch for some pokemon or whatever it is my brother compulsively watches. of course i'll be taking summer school but only one summer session. i'll have a month and a half vacation before having to get back to the books. ok, i'm about to get into one of my weird reflective moods so beware.

ok, remember back when with my whole thing with friend definitions? ok. yea. i have wonderfully awesome friends. every single one of you. a few that have redefined it more and more. yal are the sweetest....marykate, you are extremely awesome. whoever paired us up deserves a raise or something. time and time again you are always there. you are wise beyond your years. if we get the scholarship, we so rock..if we don't, we still rock;)

in less than a month, i will no longer be a freshman. no longer 'new'. i know i haven't been a 'freshman' for a while but still as of right now, i am technically one. i have that as an excuse. don't know about that..oh that's ok, youre just a freshman...no more of that. it's kind of scary. i've lived away from lubbock for so long? in all honesty, i didn't expect to stay even a second semester last year. i figured that a little time away and then go back. wouldn't dream of it now. i am a completely different person than i was. earlier, i was talking to a friend who is looking at transfering to UTA and i realized that she really doesn't know me anymore and that if she were to come here, we would have to almost start at square one. weird? not really. we were moderately close in jr. high. tons have happened since those days...tons have happened since graduation.

well another week of stuff ahead. astronomy test..oh the joy..i've actually started studying for it so maybe it won't be that bad. a BIG good luck to all the directors...tomorrow will be their first general body meeting as the new board! yal are going to do awesome:) and banquet is friday...the school year is really wrapping up and soon i will be getting ready to pack stuff up for the summer and finalize lesson plans for the fall. well, reality's calling..megan, now are you happy to have an update?

"Friends are treasures." -Horace Bruns

"A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same."
-Elbert Hubbard

"A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out."~Grace Pulpit

well it's been a while.. there just hasn't been anything 'blogworthy' to post. the weekend was spent in my room doing absolutely nothing with a few short breaks to have lunch with my brother and then to hang out w/ignacio. applebee's sucked. but i at least got to spend an hour with my brother and he went on attempting to explain his senior design project. oh wow. so complicated. i got lost so many times; all i got to say is that boy is smart. then taco bell with nacho for dinner. fun talks and questions of where are "his" people? lol. other than those two events, i led a pretty quiet weekend.

Tonight was pablo. it was great and we sold out! sweet. i got to sit like by the stage b/c i was watching one of the doors. it was one of the good seats even though i was sitting on the floor. well i don't know when i'll post next. it may be tomorrow or it may be next week. there's no telling. life is mellow and just not in a talkative mood really..laters

oh wow. had a great night. it was a night of firsts. first train ride..first time on a whatever that other transportation was..i think a monorail thing..and chipole. DMA social was awesome and then some. fun talks and girl bonding on the train. 'what's your embarrassing moment?' and who could forget the game of this or that. ok, i just want to know how am i the most likely to marry an ex-convict? lol. so with this weirded out post everyone can see that the night was filled with great memories. grrr...i am the body guard. lol.

well it's officially friday by the clock but you know what...i don't really feel the weekend. guess b/c all i have planned to do is lay around and do some research here and there. the weekend doesn't feel so um..fun. i am hoping to have brunch/lunch w/the bro saturday. that is only if he isn't hard at work on the project he's been working on for the past few weeks. i think i saw him walking once but that could have been some random guy. it's sad. i had to tell a mutual friend who has a class with him to tell him hi for me. i never thought i would say this, but i miss seeing my big bro at weird times. next year will be even weirder when he's no where. that's when i'll truely be away from home. well it's late and i am rambling. laters

not really an update. i just wanted to post this link up. one of my friends from lubbock was the subject in this documentary. Check out the synopsis.

my presentationg went extremely well! i handled everything they threw at me well and i talked most of the hr. well my class ended up being like 47minutes long. mostly everything was positive. just got some warnings especially on the topic i am talking about for that certain lesson. but other than that, they LOVED it! yes! oh yea, and i can't spell 'independence' right..lol. my students will either have fun making fun of my spelling or i will just have someone do the writing for me;) sadly i have only 2 people in my class as of right now.. have roughly a month to have at least 6 more people in my class otherwise my class doesn't make. but i have my new assignment should that happen and it would give me an extra hr a week of pay! oh yea! i may be teaching libral arts/undecided-classic. that would be weird and kind of a flashback too. the whole i was in this exact class this time last year type thing. all in all, it's all good. i have a JOB! one i actually enjoy. there's nothing but optimism of the future. what next year holds. this experience will shed a light on goals that i have already set for myself and will help with the reorganization of those goals. and who knows..i may return and teach the class a second year.

life can be crazy at times but i am happy that i am on this roller coaster. it gives me thrills and chills. it's hard to believe that this time last year i was living the high school era and doing that sort of thing and just praying of the different opportunities that would come my way in college. now it's actually happening. i thought i would go away for a semester or so and then WANT to go back to lubbock. always thought of myself as a hometown girl but now i couldn't dream of moving back. the metroplex..oh wow, luv it here. things change..life changes; we change. yay for life. ok..that medicine has really kicked in..gnight

ok, i am so excited! my mom got the job she applied for. so it's a promotion! i am so happy for her. she had an interview two weeks ago and she's had the job for a week now. they just got around to telling her that yea, she's getting paid more and that now she has more responsibilities. Well i just needed to let that out somewhere. Let out how proud i am of her even as i know her hours are gonna get longer. well i need to get back to preping for my presentation and praying that i can find a timer to use for the presentation tomorrow..laters.

wow, it's been a few days since the last update..good to know that i don't completely rely on blogger;) well the week was mostly a drag and stressing but as of friday afternoon things have been great! Phantom was awesome and then some down time. talking to mom at 3 am in the morning and my dad's accusations. fun times. hopefully when i get back for the summer my room will be tiled. i will have a newly painted room. kinda sucks b/c i was hoping to paint it my color of choice this summer but once again i am stuck w/the white walls. oh well i guess i can deal for two months:) mom updated me on the end of semester stuff. six flags then driving home w/my suitecases full of clothes and my computer! everything else will be stored but my mom's allowing me to bring my computer w/me. i am so happy:) the summer is going to be filled w/days at texas water rampage. ugg...it's better than sitting at home but then again i have to keep up w/Josh 24/7. good side of that issue is well...maybe i'll get a tan? lol. well after the relaxation of the weekend, it's just about time to step back into reality. have a presentation for PC and then astronomy quiz. oh yay..right? well back to reality i must go; Happy 21st Jen!

so, today's wednesday. yes? yes. yesterday was by far the longest day ever! big thanks to Jen for well...everything! Jen is seriously the best:) stress and all was felt yesterday...and what fun i got to be up freakishly early all to get a certificate and a pin. oh yes! lol.

today was full of hugs, talks and more hugs. oh gosh, i knew it was going to be hard but wow. i was suppose to go to astronomy clinic today to finish my lab but that didn't happen b/c well, i had more important things going on. well, there's two more days left. tomorrow's Dj academy and then friday's pOTO:) and oh the fun of gallery sitting. i seriously want to do that tomorrow. it is a good atmosphere to study my trig. i have a test friday. what fun. so i have to keep going strong until noon friday afternoon and then i can just relax for the weekend which i certainly plan on taking every part of it in. darcy found this wonderful thing last night...she posted it in her journal but if you want to go to the site..go here.

oh gosh, are these dates right? i'd like to protest or something b/c it feels like it should be wednesday or something...but monday? dang. and i have to be up early tomorrow for ALD initiation. LONG day ahead tomorrow. oh blah. Today was the last day of PC class and we had a great time! started off w/us sitting in the extreme corner of the room as a joke and then it only got better. our "mediations" were the best! lol...'you're just jealous' 'Not my fault i don't want to be a slut like YOU'. lol..we had way too much fun w/that and used it as therapy;) fun stuff.

just watched Odd girl out. and it just brings jr high flashing before my eyes AGAIN. girls can be B's!

yes, the procrastination bug has bitten me once again.. i really don't want to study for this dumb astronomy test i have in like 8 hrs. really don't but i will eventually get to it for at least a while. not now of course. so what do i do every time i don't want to study? everything humanly possible to not study. i have discovered a new game..it's shelf basketball.. you wad up socks and throw them across the room and get them in different shelves. fun fun. lol. well in like 2 minutes, my RA will be 21! yay for justin. and jeff will be 19. this is just the time for birthdays. several people all in april..and oh i mustn't forget my mom! it's at the begining of finals so not seeing her:( but at the end of that week she's suppose to be coming up and we're gonna celebrate it then:) well this week's going to be sooo hectic. i am not joking in the very least. arts festival week. everyday has something going on. not a lot in all reality but more than usual and then you throw in a few tests and then some other stuff and there ya have it:my busy week. well it's taken me about an hour to write this entry because i have been talking to people and working on schedules..and i think i am gonna sleep a little before i actually work on that studying...i'm tired:) gnight all

mandey must post..must post...oh wow. just had a totally awesome day w/darcy and megan. the day started a little ehh..kinda sorta didn't wake up for preview day..oh wells. but anywho, i spent the day with two wonderful people. we went to the mall and just had so much fun. and i got some shopping that needed to be done. sweet. dinner at fridays was great and the movie! oh wow! fever pitch is sooo awesome! high five to megan who saw that it was playing tonight! oh gosh..i so love that guy..hold it; no i love the writers who wrote his lines! he was just so perfect...and then megan and darcy making fun of me b/c of how i was in suspense mode. hey, i don't care if i know how it'll end..it's the stuff in the middle that makes it awesome. lol. sorry, i seriously loved that movie. well life is pretty good here and i must say that i love my RAs. they are the best and they truely do know EVERYTHING that goes on around here whether you want them to or not. well gonna do some studying and what not.