mandey's world

i truly admire kids. they are so young and innocent. they comprehend little of the 'real' world and what they do know is painted over in 'nice' colors so that they remain happy and optimistic of new beginnings and life. jumpy and bright eyed, they accept candy coated truths that are set before them. even when something upsetting happens, they may cry but the sadness is soon forgotten with a nice big bowl of icecream or a tickle war. why is it that when we grow up, we are unable to deal with the truths of reality and find that all problems can't be solved with a bowl of icecream? i see it as this, we are 'protected' from life so long that when it does hit us, it is terrifyingly unbearable. why did i just go into this 'spill'? well, while i was shopping with my little brother, he began asking me loads of questions like, what grade were you in 11 years ago? and how old were you when i was born. i began to contemplate tons of things...what was in those years? when did life slap me in the face? when i began to think of it and how i blatently didn't see some stuff that was right before my eyes so many years ago. how could i have NOT seen some of the stuff that went on during my childhood? innocence. that's the answer plain and simple. i accepted everything as normal and went on playing power ranger hide and seek and jumping on the trampoline in the rain. nothing seemed to matter. everything was sunshine and rainbows until life welcomed me in. these summer months, i see all the kids playing and running and i think...i want that! but you know, you can never go back...ok..i see that i have made this a little morbid..sorry. i didn't mean for it to. there are many joys that come with knowledge but with knowledge comes sadness...i know that's a quote but i am too lazy to go look it up to quote it word for word. so we'll call it a paraphrase.

today i babysat my cousin's adorable daughter. she is so cute but don't let her cherubic features fool you. she is so demanding. and right now she's testing limits so you know it was loads of fun watching her especially since she couldn't set foot in the hallway b/c we are finishing up the tile in my room:). yea..my dad got the energy to tile my room this week but didn't grout it before leaving so once my mom gets sick of seeing my boxes in the living room, we will venture into the world of grouting;) ha. well sorry to make this long...i really must get back to other things that i must do. until next time....