mandey's world

so much to say. I know I found my old journals and could write in those but with so many ppl around the house it's too risky to have my notes out on paper. I just found out that my mom had read many of the things i wrote growing up when we were cleaning out one of the bedrooms that had tons of storage things including several of my notebooks and journals.

The summer has proven to be as I expected: good and bad. I love being home, don't get me wrong, but I can only take so much. I miss Arlington and the freedom I had there. I missed hanging out with my friends and their friends. Several friends have voiced the need for me to come back soon. I couldn't agree more but with the price of gas, that is becoming less and less likely to happen until August. Stephanie and Laura do keep me up with things. Stephanie text messages me during her free time as I am her only friend that lives on campus. We keep motivating one another to succeed. We both want to do what we planned on: both of us graduating next MAY!! oh yea, and having a fun time while we're at it. Her friends from Bedford and Tarlton are nice and I get along with them. I get along with some more than others.

some people just really ticked me off this yr. I don't know why I let it get to me but I did. Being ignored and then wiped away. It made me so mad. Maybe b/c I was told that everything was ok? I don't know. It is so hard to pin point when it really happened b/c apparently I don't know. I was too scared to talk to a mutual friend b/c I didn't want to put them in the middle of anything. Rather, I kept it in for the most part. I kept it in for months before I blew up. The sad thing is that I blew up to other people rather than confronting the person. well that's what happens when someone completely avoids you. I ended up having to explain myself. I just don't get it today. I even wrote a note to them hoping to get an answer but I never did. I saw her in the computer lab. It was right before finals and I was trying to write a paper. I know she looked right at me and kept walking. I just figured she was in a hurry and was trying to write her own paper. I was sure she just was caught up in her own thoughts. I didn't even believe the bologna I was feeding myself. It frustrated me so much that I found it hard to write. Then I saw her at graduation celebration. Looked right at her. She looked right at me. I know she saw me. and then she acted like I was nothing and looked the other way. I couldn't help but mutter a few curse words. That was the last I saw of her. It still gets at me just a bit. At least I still have some true friends.

well it's late and I am babysitting not only Josh but Roman is spending the night as well. Roman will want to wake up to watch Diego and Blues Clues. Oh curse Nick Jr!!! grrrr. At least he's adorable! lol. I love my nephew! he's a cutie. His brother may resemble him. I don't know. Xavier is always sleeping and hates light. anywho. gnight

so i've been on hiatus for a while...screw it. Life's been...well life. At some points i feel so meaningless and bored out of my mind but then i turn around and can't get the world off my back. well not my back parsay...more of those i care about. Things have actually been going pretty much ok other than starting a new year boyfriendless yet again everything is swell. I couldn't ask for a better start. I think i've come to the point where i just don't care anymore b/c i'm doing my thing and that's all that matters. I see these people...some of them old friends who have families of their own. they work low wage jobs sometimes working more than one just to support their families. some of them are sad while i've talked to some that are content and couldn't be more happier.

That's how i am. Sometimes life may look shitty but I'm content. I may not have someone to share my love with or a family to take care of but i'm alright. In a year and a half i will have at least 60 kids of my own. 60 hormonally unbalanced, emotional roller coasters...and together we will learn about literature, writing and learning to trust one another. i know it sounds like all rainbows and butterflies...i know for a fact that it won't be. But so long as i make an impact on one life, all of it will be worth it. My day, my year, my career, all the nights i sit up studying for exams and writing term papers,...my life. everything will be worth it if i can help just one student.

I think i finally figured out my long term goal in life. I've known for a long time that i have wanted to help young people-Adolescents. I've just always had a hard time figuring out HOW. I used to think that my place was in a court room working with family court but then i saw that i had no passion for Law. I didn't want to have to only be able to help kids when they were in trouble or going through messy custody battles. I wanted to impact their lives. I wanted to help them see the true beauty in the thing that got me through some very lonely times...literature and writing. I went home for Christmas break. It was a very hard thing to do. As much as i loved my family i knew that i would be leaving so much behind in Arlington even though it was just for a month. At home there are so many problems going on of which one i just couldn't ignore. I can ignore the rude remarks my sister in law makes about me and i can ignore my mom and dad having little arguments from time to time but i couldn't escape my cousin. My parents took in my little cousin who had been a run away for months and just couldn't get along with her mother back in August. Everytime i spoke to my mother over the phone and she was upset b/c she didn't know what to do when my cousin did something or another, i kept on telling her to give her another chance. I tried helping my cousin understand that it was a new day. When i went home, it was quite a challenge. I was watching her behavior, attempting to console her when something happened. I was basically doing a case study w/out even knowing it. I finally figured things out. She's been told so many times since her parents divorce that she wouldn't amount to anything that she's set herself up for failure. she would get grounded for one thing or another and then get ungrounded. Next thing i knew she was grounded again for doing something else. Did i get really discouraged when i was with her and saw her fail? Yes, but you know what. til this day i still have faith that she can rise above her past and shake it all off.

Standing outside my mother's work one night waiting for her, I realized that although i love to teach, someday i want to become a guidance counselor...a psychologist. It won't be anytime too soon of course. One of my professor's has suggested that if i am serious about it, that i should get my masters in counseling and work in counseling for a while and then if i still see it in my future, go for my PHD in Adolescent psychology focusing in depth on what exactly i find interesting. he said i'll know what i want to do when i get there. He is, after all, a psychologist himself.

I'm happy with my life and myself. I have very achievable goals set before me and i don't have a doubt in my mind that i can reach for the stars. It does seem like a downer when i am here and having nothing to do but i remember that this is just the revolving door into adulthood. College is just a rest stop in my life. Sooner that i know it, i will be on my way out of here and out into the world.

so i am begining to wonder about myself. i'm supposed to be a role model to my brother, cousin and a number of freshmen but am i really? i don't feel like i am in any way. i feel like i fall utterly short on that part. you're not supposed to give into peer pressure. When i tell my cousin something is stupid and she shouldn't be doing it and then i turn around a few days later and consider doing the one thing i told her was dumb. hypocritical. At least i haven't followed through b/c i have some great friends who noticed my weakness and became my strength. sometimes i wonder how my life would have been had i not been so 'responsible' and had been quite a bit more 'social' and apt to trying things throughout high school and even into college. Could i be happier? livelier? i guess i'll never know b/c i am follow the rules mandey who does very few illegal things. let's see how times change.

i doubt anyone ever reads this anymore b/c myspace is just so much easier to navigate and you can do many different things on there. maybe this is turning more into a personal thing again. I don't want to get rid of this b/c it took me so long to develop it:( i pride myself on it.

right now i really should be writing some html in class but i don't feel like it. I'll just do it on my own time and send it in to him. haha.

This weekend was soooo awesome! Thursday night i met up with some best buy people in dallas and we had a great time at dave and busters. fun times in the car with stephanie and the fear of being pulled over with things in the car that we shouldn't have had.:) gosh, that girl is so freaking awesome. I really miss having her in our department but at least she's moving on up:)we have a great time when we hang out. i so wish i didn't have to go to class or work on friday otherwise i would have taken off for a few days on a trip w/her..darn. Friday night was spent over at arbor oaks with laura and katie. fun drinks and good times. The only bummer was having to wake up at 7am saturday for work but i did it anyways. Saturday night was pretty good but not as fun as the other nights. I really do like smaller groups. Not that it was bad b/c it wasn't. Last night was oh so funny and great. once i finally got off of work went to bennigans with some people from work. after talking for a while we headed over to one of the guys' house to hang out. we did a lot of talking. many truths seem to come out. all and all a great night. More best buy outings are in the works.

I really wish i could hangout with some people but we just can't get it all set up and we are wayyyy too busy. at least i see some of them around from time to time:) Well it's monday and my weekend of no worries is over. i have so many things due this week that it's not even funny. back to reality. back to school, back to educ. 1131, back to selling cameras...

so last night i was getting off of work and the guy up front that checks our bags as we leave made a small joke. it's a running joke between us. he always tells me that i need to clean out my purse. well my bag got cleaned out this week and he was like 'good job mandey!' i replied "well all i need to do now is clean up my room' and he started laughing and was like 'so tomorrow's assignment?' as i walked out i said, of course! for tomorrow and i found myself saying "tomorrow, tomorrow...tomorrow never comes" a quote of my momma's. it brought a smile to my face and a tear to my eyes. this weekend the whole family is together in lubbock while i work and do hw here in arlington. i can't help but feel a little jealous. Anyways, i know this is an old song but i first heard it on my last trip home to lubbock. i gave it to my mother who finally heard it last sunday and called me crying. enjoy.

A little girl, a little small for her age
A little too slow for the field day race
Momma's waiting at the finish line
And wipes the teardrops from her eyes
She says, "You did just fine honey, that's okay
"Sometimes life's just that way
"You're gonna lose the race from time to time
"But you're always gonna find

"You can't lose me
"Bet your life
"I am here and I will always be
"Just a wish away
"Wherever you go
"No matter how far
"My love is where you are
"You won't be lost if you believe
"You can't lose me"

Momma use to say "Girl it won't be long
'"Til it's time to go out on your own
"Chase your dreams find your place in life
"I know you'll do just fine"
When that day finally came
There were things she needed to but could not say
So I whispered softly as I wiped
The tears from Momma's eyes

"You can't lose me
"Bet your life
"I am here and I will always be
"Just a wish away
"Wherever I go
"No matter how far
"My love is where you are
"You won't be lost if you believe
"You can't lose me"
-Faith Hill "you can't lose me"

it's now officially SUNDAY!! In 4 days i will be in LUBBOCK! I will have the house all to myself and my momma told me i could take my pick at the beds if i wanted:) the only catch is that i have to go to this open house thing for my brother: buy his supplies from the pta and meet his new teacher. fun times but at least i get to see my lovely teacher from the past. I am just so ready to get away from this place for a little while and catch my breath. Can't understand or deal. I just want to see my momma, my brother, my kitty and my nephew. They give me the most strength and i just adore them. Once i come back i will hopefully be bringing some fun stuff that sarah is giving me:) if it's stuff that i can't fit then it's staying at momma's to decorate that room until i graduate.

Today was filled with activities. Went over to laura's new apartment and met her parents and little sister. A group of us helped move them in...3 flights of stairs! FUN times let me tell ya! After that came work where it was just grand. One of the representatives from heliard packard gave us promotional frisbees so we were throwing them across the store at random times. so far nothing's been damaged...YET! haha. it will be a sad day when the managers conviscate them. there is always something crazy going on at work and just about everyone is a joy to work with.

Well hopefully i won't die of exhaustion between now and thursday. I have a paper to write that is due monday but can turn it in tuesday with no penalty, TWO finals of which one is 5 essays and the other is half essay half scantron AND i work every day through wednesday. Fun times. if anyone in arlington wants to do anything after 9ish tuesday or wednesday night call me. Lubbock people give me a call and we can do something. I will be there the 10th. later all

Not really seeing the need to have this really. I write in my myspace and it has some good features to only allow 'friends' to read it and almost all of the people that count can read those entries. I guess this can stay and maybe i can eventually venture back to continually writing in this blog.

it's so weird on how the world around me just keeps changing and things i thought i knew and counted on changed and will never be as i had known them before. I know that that's how life is but it's hard having to cope with change. For me, it's hard to cope with change. I hate change. I've been told that it's the deliberative person in me. I have problems with things changing, life changing. when change overpowers me i always do one of two things: embrace it by keeping busy or shut the world out. i know the latter doesn't sound very productive but haven't you ever felt like crawling into a corner to hide from what lurks in the dark? i know looking back things are meant to change for the better. I can look back on my life and see where life has molded me...molded those around me. Sometimes we stayed close and other times we were pulled apart. The only people i can wholeheartedly say have been there the majority of my life are those that are bound to me by blood. I have no friends that have stayed in my life for long...really no longer than a year...there are very few exceptions. Sometimes our paths pulled us apart and then occasionally pushed us back. some over short amounts of time and others years apart.

take sean:connected at the hip since i was 4 or 5 and he was 2..when he turned 7 we would do obligational playtimes until he realized that girls weren't yucky...we were tight again..for a short time because as i entered jr high i realized that little kids were there to babysit, not as friends. Since then we have teased each other year after year and now that he's a senior in hs we wave to one another. i will probably get a graduation announcement and will give him a gift. he and his family will get an announcement from me and they will come over and give hugs and we'll talk. our paths will always be connected in that way but the best friend path was left.

Hayley...we were in ballet from the time we were three. As i went to do soccer as well and finally dropped ballet, we drifted apart and then years later on my first speech trip sitting on the bus we began to bond again with little knowledge that we had once been friends. It wasn't til months later as i was sifting through old boxes that i found pictures and recital announcements with both our names printed neatly next to each other. we had found one another once again. The months passed and we drifted apart once again and then one day i opened my myspace and there she was requesting me to 'friend' her. We had reconnected.

ironic how some people just find their way back into one's life. i correspond with a few of my old friends. each of us have had our troubles reconnecting with those we used to consider bff but at least we've found one another, someone else who willingly wants to catch up. sometimes i see people who have friends that they've known for years and i envy them. They've been able to remain constant. How can they do it?

being in college has changed me. like the old days i've made and lost friendships. some i have been able to remain close to and others have evolved and status has changed. events in my life have influenced me to be cautious with people and while deep down i want to be outgoing and sincerely friendly, defense mechanisms are always in full gear and it takes a lot of mental strength for me to not only trust but to continue trusting a person. It's like white blood cells...they fight bacteria and viruses sometimes they are working overtime when they could and should relax.

doubt any of this post has made any sense. If anyone has made it this far, big props to you. I doubt anyone did but if so would love to hear your thoughts...

haven't posted in a while and i am so suprised that i'm even writing this. I'm bored so i guess that's my reason now. not too much has happened. took thea test, finished spring semester and still don't know how i did but i have received my scores for the thea. I am excited b/c i am now part of the education certification program. two years from now i will be graduating with a degree in english and have certification to teach! yes! ok. now it's late and i'm going shopping tomorrow with my momma so i'm going to sleep. ok. so if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at ALL.

wow. I have posted three days in a row which has become very rare for me recently so let's all be HAPPY!

Dang, i am gonna miss living here. Not really living here but living with sally and christine. They're awesome. We've had roomie nights almost all week and it's been wonderful. I'm really gonna miss those two crazy girls. lol..i'm so gonna be over at their apartment for girls night! there's no way to describe our fun times except for how random we are. Beth looks at us funny when we make our dramatic effects but hey, do we care? uh NO..dum dum dum....mmmuuuuuhhhhhaaaaaa

Chris-"so you know how i know that you're gay? You don't swallow"
Sally-"well at least i don't swallow it whole"
Chris"well at least i don't spit"
me-hahahaha...

this is just too hilarious to pass up. spent the night in sort of. just got finished watching hilarious videos on youtube.com with the girls. wow, the things you do to pass the time. Anyways this was great as well as this one. Ok, be prepared to share some laughter with this great video.

oh the myspace movie is so wonderful so at least take a look at this one. Seriously, youtube is so fun.

so there were a few interpretations of a fallout boy song. this one is pg whilethis interpretation itisn't so much

so i wish i could find the first one we saw that got us hooked but at the present moment i can't locate it. It'll be a nice suprise. Anyways we had a fun night sitting around the laptop watching funny videos.

20 Years Ago:
1. being a spoiled baby girl with a bow falling off my nearly hairless head
2. sharing a room with my aunt linda
3. crying for days on end until the fire marshall let my mom back into our house and retrieved my teddy

15 Years Ago:
1. met my childhood best friend sean
2. went kindergarten where i was loved by my teacher and was left at school on more than one occasion by my brothers who thought it was dumb having to walk their little sister home
3. i learn the difference between jeans and genes and skin colors

10 Years Ago:
1. experienced racial discrimination for the first time in my life
2. was one of the best goalies in the bracket and HATED it!
3. began my rebellion with the help of on of my best friends, April, whom my parents hated.

5 Years Ago:
1. had my quincenera and cut my hair considerably short which in everyone else's mind was still really long
2. had the greatest best friends and lost them
3. doubted my faith

4 Years Ago:
1. Had a revival of my spirituality and was outcasted by many of my friends b/c of it
2. Attended SEARCH retreats and learned a lot of the person i am and want to become
3. succumb to peer pressure on spring choir trip and ride all the crazy roller coasters

3 Years Ago:
1. Apply and get accepted to be on SEARCH STAFF followed by fun initiation
2. Spontaneously get invited to be on debate team which would change my high school experience forever
3. go to prom stag and then spent the morning hours bowling with speech team

2 Years Ago:
1. Speech is my life and my closest friend is my coach
2. I rode on my first plane when i went to TFA state; Andy sat next to me and held my hand the whole trip!
3. went to senior prom with friends and spent the time of graduation til i left for school fighting with my parents

1 Year Ago:
1. realize how many people really care about me
2. nearly lose my mind
3. learn how many days i can actually go without sleep and still be able to walk

1 Week Ago:
1. went crazy studying
2. hanging with the roomies and random outings
3. stressed about life

Yesterday:
1. crazy hair
2. hanging out with the roommates and coded conversations
3. sleep

Today:
1. PC jokes
2. applied for summer housing
3. not sleeping

Tomorrow:
1. Trig test (5hrs from now)
2. go to all my classes (maybe)
3. dinner with LAURA!!!let's be happy!

so i usually do these but never post them but this one is so cute. It is almost like the one that is my nameplate for staff outside my door except that one is like a sweets thing. well it's been a fun night out shopping with the girls (Christine, Sally and Theresa)...so much fun that i think i might actually fall asleep before 3am! gnight all!

How to make a Mandey
1 part success
3 parts crazyiness
1 part leadership

the link and all of that kept on messing up my template for the whole blog so i just copied and pasted the fun stuff. you can find this quiz at goquiz.com

well spring break is over and it's craziness all over again. finally got the place cleaned up but my room still looks horrible. I woke up today and was just like, i'm gonna clean! it was oodles of fun. i have papers and tests within the next week that are going to keep me INSANE so i'll be just the same old mandey of course;)

i've been looking at test dates for finals and i think that ALL my tests minus trig are going to be on the SAME DAY!!! AHHHH!!! But there is a silver lining to the whole situation: they are on the MONDAY so after may 8th i will be done for spring '06 and won't have to be back til the 29th when summer 1 starts:) It's really great. I think i am going to see if i can somehow manage to see if it'll be possible to move into my summer housing super early so that i can head home and take advantage of all the time i can with the family and possibly even be there for mom's birthday!! Me being home will be a present within itself:) trust me, it will.

i am getting way TOO addicted to myspace! it's bad. oh and all the surveys...oh my. it's really crazy. anywho...stupid voiceMAIL!!! grrr. have no idea how to access it and check it so dumb phone either beeps at me or vibrates. it is so FRUSTRATING!! well i guess i should go study for my test for structure of modern english...oh, you've got to see THIS it's hilarious...later all

ok, so i just have to post. I've had a fabulous spring break. Tonight was freaking awesome!! i went to my first mav's game and omg, it was freakingtabulous! The mavs were behind by like 19pts at half and came back to win it! i was so happy. it was such an awesome experience. i have so much hw and now an assignment that i should be working on this week but you know what...i have yet to crack a book. i guess going to the movie store in the mall that is going out of business was a REALLY bad idea. Everything in the store was at least 40% off. It was great:) I love the joy that having family around brings to me. I know sometimes they get to me but really, i love my family. When spring break is over, i know i am going to feel a little loss but hopefully things will be ok. In like a month i will be home for easter. but still it's been great having them in town. A very much welcomed distraction from life. ok, i'm going to go now before my grammar gets any worse. gnight.

yea, you're reading the time right. It's almost 6am Friday morning and i am up. craziness? not really. haven't been able to sleep lately so this isn't anything out of the ordinary. anywho, it's roughly 6 hours before my spring break will officially begin! It's going to be awesome. Hopefully i will get a little bit of studying done somewhere in there;)

so wednesday has come and gone and well let's just say that i am 10 inches shorter...my hair that is. Take a look for yourself...

i will not sleep for at least the next 72 hrs or so! wednesday night should be the first time i sleep. anyone wishing to help me have energy, is very welcome to do so. I have a fridge full of energy drinks and books that need to be read and reviewed. Cliff notes need to be printed off so i can review those as well. I have my midterm in history of world lit wednesday afternoon and it is completely freaking me out. I will study all the way up til noon that day and then clear my head the hr before class. well i will have to since i'm getting my hair cut. I'm really curious to how much i'll be able to donate for locks of love. with the humidity and just the way my hair has gotten, it drives me nuts. i'm ready for it to go. Maybe not as much as it will be gone but hey, it's for a good cause. hair grows, right? so i have one midterm and hair getting cut all in one day. Oh yea, and a final on friday! yea, fun times there. I'm not too worried about the final; the last two tests we've had i've gotten an a+ so the final will be no problem. Then people come into town this coming weekend. Spring break's gonna be awesome! I'm going to six flags! i now have a season pass so can go whenever i want:) so if i get bored and just want to go for a couple of hours, i can;) so i have a new addiction:RENT! lol. i will not say how many times i've seen it but well it's been more than a few times. I LOVE IT! saw it friday night at the slumber party and was singing with rodger who's one of the RAs! it was awesome. well now time to begin my sleepless nights full of studying

yep yep yep. i'm excited. next week i have a couple of tests but once they're over...PARTY! lol.. not really. I need to clean my room so badly. It needs to be perfect for when my brother comes to visit me. last thing i need is for him to go tell mom that i have a messy place although that's the way it's been all semester. my room is usually so clean but, meh. maybe it's cause i can easily shut my door and no one can see it. It'll change back to norm when i move;) not only will he probably see my room but my other brother's fiance is coming as well and the four of us are probably doing something together as a group one of the days.

Had a wonderful time with one of my good friends yesterday. we spent the afternoon together and it was loads of fun. we walked around the mall for hours and forced each other to go into stores that the other clearly was not comfortable in. i felt so out of place in a few of the stores and i could feel the store associates staring at me. 'i'm so sorry abercombie and hollister that i just don't fit into the mold.' lol.

well all i have to do for the rest of the week is show up to 2 classes tomorrow and then staff slumber party tomorrow night. interesting stuff there. they so stole our idea! lol. it's all good. Hopefully we will get our group events rolling. we're hoping to have a 'field day' event this month and then a formal for april. oh i hope it works. well,my morning meeting got canceled so i'm going back to sleep! lol..laters

i really should be writing my paper that's due in 4 hrs but i just can't. yea, i decided to skip all morning classes to write this paper. things came up yesterday and i never got around to writing. When i finally got the energy to write, the assignment sheet was nowhere to be found. I've attempted to write 'in the dark' but it bugged the heck out of me but now i have the paper courtesy of sheena. oh thank goodness for her! right now i am just antsy and am rolling ideas around in my head. I LOATHE greek mythology! I thought the torture was all over back in junior high/high school but NOOO. not in a happy mood about this class and there's no way i can drop it. It's a class that i HAVE to take with the ONLY professor that teaches it. You know how a book on tape sounds like? This guy probably did a few books on tape b/c he does the voice perfectly! So annoying and monotone.

Maya was AWESOME! She is such a funny and sweet woman. I am just so happy that i got to take a photo with her. It was like, wow! ok, geeky english nerd moment done. THe event was so good. I actually got most people to the right seats! go me!

11 days til spring break!! yea i have a count! if you don't then there's something wrong with you! for one of my classes, there's only 2 more classes til break! gotta love professors who have their own countdowns! lol. well i've procrastinated long enough..time to go back to torture.later all.

so technically my weekend doesn't start til tomorrow but i have made it to where i actually began yesterday! lol. tomorrow i have trig that i may not go to and then driving to irving to eat at the brazillian restaurant for portuguese. yummy! Then Maya on saturday. I'm so excited. Sunday i get to lock myself in my room and write my dumb paper for history of world lit. sucks to be me.

so i just got back from thrifting with my roommate and her friend and was able to find some good things. One thing i got was a 4 function calculater that i need when take the THEA test in a few weeks. it's so annoying that i have to buy a simple calc. for this one thing. I knew if i bought one at the store it was gonna cost me at least $5 well i only spent 2 and got other things with it. I also bought a couple of cute shirts:) i'm excited.

so i'm learning to use the cognitive approach and it's strange and interesting yet benificial. I've just been introduced to it and how to implement it in real life but I can slowly see how it works. Hopefully i'll become a pro at it eventually. Well it's time for mandey to go find something to do. later all

well actually, my meat says that. dinner was horrible! when the meat is all red..umm..yea. and from the looks of it, the chicken wasn't far from jumping off the plate either. please promise me that should i die of food poisoning that someone will make sure that Aramark gets sued! i really can't wait til i no longer have a meal plan and all i have to eat is frozen dinners and ramen. i welcome those days!

So, the next two years are planned out and as expected, i am set up to graduate May '08. If i take 9 hrs in the summer, i will be taking 12 hrs for the next 3 reg semesters and then 6 hr class my final semester which is residency. I am so stoked. All i need to do right now is get myself into gear and get ready for the THEA test. I am deathly afraid of the math section b/c we all know that my skills in that area are extremely limited. BUt anyways, yea, i have gotten things rolling w/the school of education and i really like the fact that they use transfer grades for gpa b/c it makes me feel SOO smart! w/out this past summer's 2 A's, my overall gpa by their standards is a 3.46...yea, smarty!

so it's 3am so you know what that means. ha..i'm procrastinating once again! 2 tests today and i haven't studied much...i am so crunch time oriented. It's extremely sad. well at least after these tests, all i have left is portuguese on friday. a short quiz there but other than that, nothing! does that mean sleeping? uh no..blue and white bash is coming up so we all know what that means! fun times to come. I can sleep when it's all said and done;) well later all

and saw this on a friend's site...

Three's

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Mandey
2. Amanda
3. nana

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. aleiflor
2. amad22
3. chicka_like

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my smile
2. my hair on good days
3. my eyes

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. MY HAIR! (on the more frequent bad days)
2. My eyebrows
3. i'll keep from the obvious and i'll go with my ragged nails

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. hispanic-mexican
2. spaniard
3. irish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. heights
2. being alone
3. the dark

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Jeans
2. glasses
3. Water

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. bed races shirt
2. purple house shoes
3. sweat pants

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. All American Rejects
2. Martina McBride
3. Kelly Clarkson

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. I hope you dance
2. Don't forget to remember me
3. in my daughter's eyes

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. be more outgoing
2. more positivity
3. go on a road trip!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. honesty
2. trust
3. love

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. reeses pieces is my favorite candy
2. i like 'bad' boys
3. family is very important to me

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. eyes
2. intelligence
3. good sense of humor

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading for fun
2. writing random poems/stories that never see the light of day
3. blogging

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Hug my MOM
2. play with my nephew
3. get away from the world!

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. teaching high school
2. teaching at collegiate level
3. counseling

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. ruidoso! (To see AMBER!!)
2. brasil
3. ANYWHERE that ISN'T TEXAS

THREE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. fall in love
2. get married
3. have childrent

THREE WAYS I'M STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i overanalyze EVERYTHING
2. over emotional at times
3. i like it when guys do nice things like open the door for me

THREE WAYS I'M STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i take short showers
2. i don't take long to get ready
3. ...can't think of anything

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. johnny depp
2. james franco
3. heath leadger

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ:
1. Kelly
2. Megan R.
3. Sarah

YAY for schedules! i feel as though i accomplished a LOT this week and yet i might not have but to me it seems like a LOT! I have had meetings with advisors, fixed classes and had staff stuff. And yet i still found time to have fun. POOOG is never ending! lol. oh and next week i finally get to meet with an education advisor and get information about what's to come in the next two years! Other than the usual bumps in the road this week has been great! Some new and interesting things going on in my life and it's crazy fun. co workers are awesome and i heart my roommates! well this is a weirded out post so i think i'm gonna get a going. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

say poogs high pitch and it is so freaking awesome! got in from retreat a little over 8 hrs ago and wow. bonding time was awesome. i roomed with some awesome girls and we had a wonderful time talking at all hours of the night making our bosses not be able to sleep. POOG! we are the PRANK QUEENS! once i get pics from laura and sheena, i will post all our pics b/c they were just that great. We wrote on and tp'ed one of our bosses cars and it was tons of fun sneaking out and doing the deed. we gave it to him as a birthday present! wrapped up and all:)

fun names for everyone! grandma, mom, kids, heifers, good poogs, bad poogs, dead poogs...the list goes on and on. fun times pranking the guys but people got retarded and took things stupidly so we bowed out gracefully and had our own fun in our room and then played with our bosses. everyone else saw us. They were so jealous. dang i would be too if i didn't get coke and cookies! we are so special. We had some great girl talk all weekend...then everyone disappointed us by their lame prank. gosh, we expected more since they had over 10 people putting it together..i can't believe it took them that long to think it out..oh gosh. well it was nice to get away for a while. I got absolutely NO homework done this weekend and i just realized that i slept through the super bowl...oh wells...well time to get back to the real world...later kiddies

THE COOL PEOPLE'S CLUB-Lindsey(PC Grandma), Laura(Mommy), Sheena (Kiddie), Me(Kiddie), this is right after we left our boss his present all over his car!

after days of stress and anxiety, my housing has all finally cleared up for the most part. stupid freaking bursar's office. i don't like them. I like the nice lady who works there but no one else. I HEART the nice lady in the housing office who has adjusted housing payments for me. all this financial crap has been so stressful but my scholarship finally went through. There wasn't any chance of me getting kicked out of housing b/c i work in the hall but just having to deal with all the different offices going from one to another and back again. Yea, NOT FUN AT ALL. i'm glad that it's over...maybe.

highlight of a horrible day: buying some cute shoes! yea, i know. i really hate shoe shopping but i saw them and i just couldn't resist especially with the voice of sheena telling me to live a little. lol
highlight of the week: talks with my "nun" lol..fun times:)

well i think enough time has passed for the dryers to be open so i can dry my clothes and get to packing for the weekend. There will be tons of pictures to come b/c this weekend's gonna be awesome! 20 PCs; no MOLS and a camp all to ourselves. can it get any better? uh...NO. have a great weekend!

ok, not an update, i PROMISE! but my aunt sent this to me and well it brightened my day so i want to share it so it can brighten yours as well!

One Flaw In Women

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime...
An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?" And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way! And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day. Wait until tomorrow to finish."

But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord." "She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel. The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!" "What's the tear for?" the angel asked. The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride." The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."

And she is! Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer whe! n their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors. They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning. They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideals. They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give. HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

PLEASE pass this along to all your women friends and relatives to remind them just how amazing they are.

i'm getting back into blog addiction...meh..so shoot me. i am so freaking swamped that i am so exhasted. i have a test or quiz every day this week except for thursday. fun times let me tell you. It's hard to keep on going knowing that i will actually get out of this place at the end of the week. i'm sorry but i don't get out that much and well this will be the one weekend that i get out of here and haha..i kinda hope one of my roommates is here for at least one night alone. that sounded bad but come on...one time when i'll be out the whole weekend! this doesn't come along that often.

things have been good. getting to know some people a lot better. not so much tension in the air and that is awesome. girl time is so great. just hanging out with people and acting crazy. i haven't done that a lot in a long while. i'm trying my best to keep to my new years resolutions. really i am. it gets hard at times but i am pulling through. i try to get out a little more and that helps some. i thought when i made this resolution that i could do it and it was fine the first week or so and then, well an unexpected twist was thrown in there and now i'm trying to regain my strength. weekend away from the world is gonna be a gift. well back to studying for multicultural lit quiz...later all

so i was not in the mood for studying...AGAIN like at 3am this morning so i finally got tired of my messed up side bar and decided to go for a new look:) My blog will be going over construction:) and once i figure out how to change my galleries to the same, they will match:) It's a nice change since i did have that layout for almost a year.

well it's the weekend now and all i have to say is good riddance! now i get to spend the weekend reading and studying. Oh the fun times of college! last semester i took more hrs (well like 1 more) but it seemed so much easier b/c of the levels. Now i am in three junior level english classes and dang! i wanna pass out some times, but then my hw won't get done so energy drinks are my friends.red jak is so good! i'll get out for a little bit this weekend but it won't be long enough:( it's sad to say but i am ready for pc retreat next week! get away from here and of course have our fun talks. Take our dinner convos and multiply them by a billion. Late night girl talks are the best! The camp is actually pretty nice. Maybe it won't rain this time? well have a meeting in an hr...laters

omg... i haven't slept slept in over 24 hrs! too much to do in so little time! freaking stressed to the max! i managed to stay awake through my classes although i couldn't concentrate in history of world lit. lol. sheena and i took passing notes to the max. We were pretty productive in adding more ideas to our list for stuff for Feb. event THat event is gonna rock! gotta love crazy ideas that develop during dinner time. Tonight went out with my fellow portuguese people and we ventured to irving to go to a Brasilian restaurant where we found out that they closed freaking early. Took another trip to the other brasilian restaurant and it too was closed. We were all up for the food too! but we found a nice place to have dinner and made the most out of the night. did have some good talks and by the way, i know how to say SALMON but it's CRAYON! HAHAHA! ok, i've surpassed 'special'...gnight...back to hw

ok, crazy roommate next door is requesting an update...here it is...i'm busy. update done.

no really, it's a week into the semester and things are already crazy fun. everyone expecting me to get things done. last night i stayed up working on hw and it was crazy. i know this semester is gonna test me in so many ways but it's all for the better, right? oh let's hope so.

not much to report except that and then i'm still waiting on scholarship to show up for housing/meals. really sucks. other stuff going on in my life and well we'll see how that works out. God doesn't cease to amaze me time and time again...i don't know if that made any sense..made perfect sense in my head. But just the ups and downs i go through...my life would be the wildest rollercoaster if it ever existed. just when i think things are in balance, HE throws in another ball for me to juggle or shakes the earth below me to see how good i am at keeping things going. bad analogy but it works. anyway, there's my update; now i must go read for multicultural lit and read more Odyssey.

don't do this all that often but this song is well worth it. it speaks for itself:

"Don't Forget To Remember Me"
-Carrie Underwood

18 years have come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they just drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
'Baby don't forget

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me'

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright
Before we hung up I said
'Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell mee-mal that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me'

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
I know there are more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me
Don't forget to remember me'

ok, come on...who the heck get's hit on at walmart? lol.
"can you help me pick the right melon"
"would you like to learn how to cook together?"

omg,let's just say that julie and i are never gonna forget that trip to walmart.

so i just got home from the club....my first time!! it was awesome...was there celebrating a certain someone's birthday!! HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY NACHO!!!! it was great..we had tons of fun at dinner and the club was great too! great times with the guys hanging out at S4:) smiles all around:)

so it's been awhile. i know everyone's missed me:( haha..right.. anywho, had a very great time in new orleans. got a little teased about the fact that the only other state besides texas that i had been to was new mexico but it's ok. great times in the van...great memories and really just getting to know different people. we did major cleaning at the mission. Our first project was moving some 500 cinderblocks from one spot to another about 10 ft away. let me tell you, that was all fun. it was great b/c everyone worked on it together and we actually got them moved pretty fast. lovely experiences with bugs and weird smells...oh and the mold...the mold...mm...yea. if you haven't been on an alternative break trip, you are really missing out. I highly reccomend it. If you want to hear some stories, then give me a call. I will be moving in tomorrow so give me a call and we can hang out and all.

once i've moved in and am settled, i will download my pics from alternative break trip and post them. I didn't take very many but there are oh so many pics that other people took and well i'm just gonna get copies of their pics. besides their cameras are a whole lot better than my dumb camera;) well until next time...

so, here's my post of the year...really this is for me...i do reflect a lot. More reflection than i should at times but still, new years always makes me want to think of what has happened and what will come. instead of writing a long drawn out explaination, i think i will just do a 50 things that happened this year. No order in particular so if this seems random or boring, feel free to skip on through and go to someone else's site.

***just a heads up, some if not most is vague and only makes real sense to those who know of it.***

1. got training for peer counseling job in educ 3335 or as we secretly called it "roommate therapy" as we all had life issues
2. instructed for the first time of very many more times to come (many as in a lifetime;))
3. became an aunt to the most adorable baby EVER
4. Moved into my NEW ROOM that is so 'Mandeyish'
5. great roomie's with awesome rooms
6. girls' nights
7. comfortable couches to sleep on in times of need
8. 3 am phone calls/all phone calls that were very much needed
9. '5 minutes and a basket of rope'
10. hair holding and great friends
11. the truth
12. talking
13. broken computers
14. late night talks w/mom
15. pow wows at starbucks w/frape's and good talks and advice
16. dinners with Megan at la isla just to get away from it all:)
17. aim blocking
18. Messaging heart to hearts/fights
19. one too many 'nine good things'
20. finishing papers minutes before they were due
21. being the person stuck in the middle
22. finally saying no
23. sleepless nights
24. my own car!
25. driving to arlington
26. show toons...no other way to explain it...it's a have to be there type thing
27. corny jokes..'so there were two prezels...'
28. being cornered in my own room
29. being dragged out of bed
30. tired to the point of laughter
31. stressed
32. complete breakdowns
33. overemotional analyzing
34. putting myself through 'overcoming paranoia 101'
35. counselors
36. career questioning
37. spluging at barnes and noble just to make myself feel better...some people go shoe shopping; i go book shopping
38. hilarious birthday presents..enough said there;)
39. 'share time' with christine. damn, if you think you have crazy drunk stories, then try joining our share time b/c you'll probably be blown away!
40. Hearing myself for the first time being referred to as a college Junior by my boss
41. unforgetable party memories
42. having courage
43. being brave (yes, courage and bravery are very different;))
44. crying as the first of many friends got married
45. realizing time and time again that i am forever changing and can never be the same person...EVER
46. regrets...one two many regrets throughout the year.
47. letting go of what i cannot control and what is holding me back
48. laughing
49. learning to smile again
50. and most of all accepting life

so fifty things...done and said...with that said, i welcome in 2006. Hopefully a brighter and better year than 2005...i will study, love and learn...sorry guys, i have to study especially if i want an ounce of chance of staying for the summer;) 2006 will be awesome. more opportunities, more memories and much more fun...by the end of 2006 i will be one very awesome 21 year old;) Happy New Years to all! Now it's off to begin cleaning my clothes and packing my bags...i am just one of those people that prefers to begin that kind of stuff early although i will admit that i will probably not finish packing until saturday night;)

seriously! last night after christmas mass, delicious tamales were unwrapped and eaten at my grandma's house. It's a Flores tradition. one of my favorites. let me tell you, traditional mexican tamales are a lot better than...well actually, i mean extremely better than those cruddy tamales that Aramark attempts to make;) since yesterday i've had my share of some very awesome food. i bask in the tamales b/c of the tradition behind them. For a traditional hispanic family (which all of my family is) tamales are on the main course for christmas b/c even if you don't have much at christmas, or even if you do, this is a present that everyone gets to unwrap and don't even have to wait for santa to come! mmmm...my grandpa's tamales...his were awesome! i'm going over later this week to see if he'll send me back to arlington with at least some to eat with my friend and her family;)

so i'm waiting in line at the toy store in the mall with my mother...her hands are full and i'm holding the shopping bags. the lady ahead of us is checking out and she has the most adorable baby girl who's maybe 2 months old...The lady has to move up to the counter and pay the cashier and the baby goes crazy..she's upset and crying. my mother tries to help the lady by making cute faces but nothing helps...i wasn't right next but when the baby became fussy, iwalked up. All i did was look down at her and smile...I then asked her what she wanted...i saw her pacifier and slipped it in her mouth and she was silent and started cooing... My mother was SHOCKED and Jealous! THe mom thanked me of course. Later at church the babies sitting in front of us were commented on their lovely behavior thanks to me;) for some reason the 3 or 4 times they started to become fussy i just so happened to glance over and they calmed down! It's a gift, what else is there to explain it? Ironic in a few ways but still it's a gift.

yea, i guess that's how to explain this.season. there's not a lot like how my house usually is this time of year and in some ways i am extremely happy. so many changes this year. a nephew...yeaso we hung our new stockings up by the chimney...oh thankgoodness i finally got a new one! i've had a soccer girl stocking since i was like 9 or 10! we have sucessfully run out of room in the center and had to compromise the spacing for the stockings. let's see how the 9 stockings make out this year! lol. my mom said there is only room on the chimney for maybe 2 more so it's a first come first serve;) i told my bro that the space is all their's for more kids b/c duh...yea.

i've wrapped so many presents that my head is spinning. I really like my mom's family list more than my dad's! my room still has a small walkway for me to get to my suitecase to my bed and out of the room...just another week of doing that though. i am bored beyond boredom. not a lot to do around here...i feel like my brain is dying. Oh i sure hope not. I need it when i get back for the spring semester! Well Merry Christmas to you ALL!

oh, my bro had his christmas program tonight and it was so cute! this is the last year that so many grades were together since next year six graders will go to middle school. My bro did wonderfully...then oh the kindergarten and first graders...they were as usual adorable! they did motions for their songs and one of the little girls led them b/c she taught everyone the moves she learned from 'barney'. it was so SOOO cute! The orchestra did a splendid job for there only being 5 of them...elementary orchestra is always small..i think we had 9 people when i was in orchestra...josh gets to start violin this summer! can't wait for that...fun times...

ok, i'm gonna say this now...i have the most adorable nephew EVER! he is sooo sweet and precious. and of course can wrap everyone around his little fingers;) he's always asking for me and we play our little games...he then goes to his 'Nana' and tries to get her to play the games...we play 'up/down' and 'weeeee' i lift him up in the air with big jumps..he goes into giggles all the time. but boy, if he's upset, he'll let everyone within a mile know. but he's oh so cute and fun to play with...boy, i'm gonna hate going back to school...i won't see him until easter! i'm gonna take the next few weeks and spoil that boy rotten!

well i love my mother SOOO much! i love our 3 am drives/talks...i love sitting and talking with her...i love just having 'us' time when no one else is around...i love just hugging her...boy, barely anyone knows how much i've missed my mother and being able to give her a hug.

so i've been contemplating a counterplan to all of the annoying questions of 'so do you have a boyfriend?'...i've been told it's too bad and that i should just think but not act it out...but come on, it would be hilarious...if any of you know me very well then you know what i've been thinking...i won't post the plan b/c don't want it to fall on the wrong ears. if you want to know my hilarious/devious plan, im me or email me...believe me, it will make you laugh...later all

HELLO Lubbock...(for a few weeks) thank goodness i decided that astronomy was not worth my effort b/c if not then i would be really out of luck...seriously. would have ahd to reschedule my flight and tons of other things. anyways, i am writing from good ol' west texas. I've been here for a little over 12 hrs now and things are good minus my room still being used as a storage bin as the remodeling guys work on other parts of the house and finding the dog sleeping on my favorite comforter...that's ok. i'll just wash my sheets once again...it isn't like i did it before i left a few weeks ago so i would have clean sheets to come back to or anything like that;) hear that sarcasm. I will just sleep in my parents bed since they are thousands of miles away!

packing at 4 am is so great;) it's all good..it was well worth it all. i wonder if my roommates were kept awake...i really hope not. fear of waking them up is what kept me from busting out with the vaccuum.;) anywho, needless to say, i was really exhausted and slept almost the whole flight which wasn't too bad in itself. This lady traded me seats so she could sit with her husband and i didn't have to share seats with anyone. how sweet is that?

I've already babysat my nephew once and it was so MUCH FUN! He and i had a blast. He now has the walker and omg...it is hilarious with him trying to walk...especially since all he had was his socks on. baby on a walker in socks on tiled floor...yea..he's more of a 'sliding' baby. I think this kid is getting the wrong idea about walking. anyways, have a long weekend ahead of me full of judging, babysitting,basketball and babysitting...laters

so i really should be studying for finals right about now but i just got home from PC christmas party and well not ready to study just yet. staff party was awesome. The house was gorgeous, the food delicious and the conversations memorable.i'll steal pics from amber once she posts them;) It was so awesome how everyone's gifts really fit them. It was so cute! our bosses know us soooo well! i got a book of poems: Essential Poems (to fall in love with) yea, there were a few jokes made towards the title and how it fits me. darn..i'm pathetic.

so i finished my english analysis paper a whole three minutes before it was due and turned it in. i feel so bad w/the way i treated a few people while i was writing that god forsaken paper. i chewed someone out when all they wanted to do was bring me food. oh and i showed up to teach w/out shoes...great times there let me tell you! needless to say i got some sleep after all of that. Thursday my english teacher sent me home...great times...did some christmas shopping thursday evening. That was so much fun! Know the Frosty that buid-a-bear has been advertizing? well i got to buy one! it is so soft and adorable. I am so jealous that my mom decided to get it to give to my nephew but it's all good. i get to take it as a carry-on:)

so i have two finals.one monday night and the next the following morning...and then i get to pack and i fly out friday morning. so excited aboutthat...this is the first time i'm flying something other than southwest. I am flying to lubbock and once i get there i meet my mom at the gate and get the car keys from her and she gets on the plane i just got off of...same seat and all and leaves. i have babysitting duties all weekend so my little bro and i have the house to ourselves...party? ha..whatever..well i can feel my medicine kicking in...laters

10 Firsts:
First Best Friend: Sean Davis
First Screen Name: AMAD22
First Crush: Christopher Warren-1st grade
First Music: COUNTRY!
First Car: '97 taurus
First Love: My parents
First stuffed animal: my teddy that my aunt gave me when i was born or as my students called him 'mutilated teddy'
First Job: first real job would be Oasis Shaved ice when i was 15 but i used to walk around the collosium during basketball games and sell cokes (they thought i was 15 but i was younger)

9 Lasts:
Last Cigarette: never
Last Car Ride: TGIFridays for girls night/birthday night with Sara, Sally and Christine
Last Movie Seen in theatres: Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire w/my little bro
Last Phone Call: Megan
Last Kiss: From my nephew :)
Last CD Played: a classical cd for babies (it's really soothing)
Last bubble bath: a LONG time ago back when i was in jr high
Last time you cried: yesterday

8 Have You Evers:
Have You Ever Been Outside The Country: Mexico
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends?: not even dated so NO
Have You Ever Been Arrested: No
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: No
Have You Ever Been on TV: oh yea..lol. educational stuff and other random things
Have You Ever Kissed Someone and then Regretted it?: yea

7 Foods you Hate:
1. Fish
2. Menudo
3. tongue
4. plain rice
5. oranges
6. pruines
7. eggs (have to be in the mood)

6 Things You've Done Today:
1. watched full house
2. ate crappy lunch
3. taught college adjustment
4. went to history of american lit
5. Girl's/Double Birthday celebration w/roomies
6. procrastinate

5 Things You Ate Today:
1. turkey ceasar wrap
2. chicken quessedia
3. fries
4. jack daniel's burger
5.

4 People You Can Tell Anything To:
1. Megan Magana
2. Darcy
3. My cat
4.

3 Choices:
1. Red or Black: red
2. Hot or Cold: Cold
3. Sun or Rain: rain

2 Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. fall in love
2. be a mother

1 Thing You Regret:
1. talking

so it's late in the AM once again and i don't see sleep coming anytime soon but anywho...had a wonderful time in the LBK. Was supposed to get back in time to see my mom before she went to work but 15 minutes out of lubbock the highway was closed due to a cotton truck catching on fire and we got stuck on backroads for over 45 minutes. Not cool at all.

Finally got home and saw the family. My dad made fun of me b/c i kept on looking for my sis-inlaw but they finally came over and i got to see my nephew! He is so big now! and is one spoiled boy. You'd think he'd be more spoiled by the women but no, he's a daddy's boy. When you frustrate him he screams for his "DAD" serious. no joke. He mostly babbles but he can say "dad." not dadda or daddy but dad. i could go on forever of how adorable he is.

thanksgiving was great. We had it over at our house this year which was great. got to see aunts, uncles and cousins. and once everyone was full, the men watched football as the women pulled out the newspaper and began to see what was worth waking up for. Yea, my family takes part in the day after thanksgiving shopping. Usually my dad and i stay home with the kids. I was banned from shopping back in the 5th grade but this year i was given an assignment. You know those crazy people that sleep outside a store? um...Yea, i sat in line for over 7 hours in the cold weather outside of best buy. luckily no one was hurt but there were threats. I got to meet some really cool people and one of them i will forever thank. If you want to know why, ask me. But anywho, it was well worth it. standing in freaking cold weaher overnight w/out sleep. very worth it. You'd think that once i got out of best buy that i'd go to sleep but i didn't. I caught up with my mom and aunt and we continued shopping most of the day;) well that was my trip. I have updated my pictures. Not many but hey, i did update

yea, so i guess this is punishment for excessive sleep? i really want to go to sleep but just can't seem to keep my head on the pillow...i layed staring at the ceiling for a while. i really should stop sleeping days away. anywho, i posted this one back in february but gonna repost it cause i can. Please comment b/c i'm interested in knowing...

If you read this, You must post a memory of me.It can be anything you want,it can be good or bad.Just so long as it happened.Then post this to your journal,and see what people remember about you

so i'm trying to be proactive, social...whatever you want to call it. yea, gonna step it up? yea, that's the word i think. my 'feeling antisocial' sign has been erased for the time being and i will work on the 'postivity' factor. once i take my astronomy test thursday morning, life will be swell...for the weekend at least. Get to see harry potter which i am so excited about. Oh and then possibly meeting my brother sometime to have lunch or dinner and hang out. and oh phone calls! haven't seriously talked with my mom in over a week and this weekend we are gonna have one of our fun talks. i can't wait til we can talk in person but the phone call will have to do for now.

had a pc/ra summit tonight and oh the fun times we had! everyone making their chants and their banners...just remember: Don't mess with Liberal Arts West...(picture of a Dingo)this dingo will eat your baby! i still think our chant was awesome.laters

-wrong! yea, just when you think that you're at the bottom of the barrel, you find out that the barrel is bottomless. Right now i have no ID card and all i have to show is a newly redecorated and reorganized room. not cool at all. that card is my life and who knows if i'm gonna be able to get a new one b/c of the new card that won't start working for a week. but at least my hall directors are being cool about the whole situation. i can continue checking out a temp card but that only helps me get in the building and my room. can't get into the office, classrooms, or even eat. went to the store and bought food. oh the good ole days of tv dinners. big thanks to megan who is so awesome and cheered me up. well weekend's over and the major thing i have this week is lab final. a week and a half til thanksgiving! yea, that's a pretty good countdown to have;) hugs and kisses and babysitting and shopping..yea, i can't wait.

yea, so i am well...done...done for this week at least..once i do my astronomy lab hw tomorrow, then this week is basically done. just have to show up to portugues friday. oh darn...early saturday morning. why must i torture myself? why? oh that's right, b/c i want the extra cash.

so i'm extremely insane...i couldn't write my american lit paper and ended up writing it in the wee hours of the morning and had 25 minutes to spare before class. yea..not good. oh and if you think that's insane, wait to you hear the rest...after a nice and long tuesday that yes, i woke up early and wrote that paper, i proceeded to fall asleep at like 8ish and then woke up at 1am to work on my presentation...yes people, right now i am still going and i've been up since 1am. i took a 30 minute nap at 7am but other than that, um..yea...my presentation went ok. at least i hope so. my professor kept on asking questions and i could answer most of them minus one question about realism. i will never live that one down. anyways, sleep will be had really soon...and then nice 8am class in the am! yay for school..not!

story of the day: mandey just got saved by the 'english' god. lol..just kidding...but seriously, i don't have my presentation til wednesday! so tonight i will be working on american lit paper and tomorrow after work it will be presentation time!

Is it bad that I really don't want to write my paper or do my project? I just don't have the patience to do any of it. I have the materials for my project but meh. i am not assigned to present until wednesday but the girl that was supposed to go this coming monday went last wednesday...blah. i don't know. Usually she says who's up next but she didn't this time. i'm confused.grr.

i know these entries are starting to sound dull and in some ways, yea my life is dull. there are things going on but nothing i want the whole world to know about. porn debate was this past week and it went good. we are doing evals in the meeting next week. work is work and school is school. i'm not the same person i was a year ago, not the person i was 5 months ago or even a week ago. Changes are good...should be at least...well i was just listening to yahoo music and this song was playing. If you haven't heard it, just google it or something and play it. it is awesome

Alabama-Angels Among us

i was walking home from school on a cold winter day
took a shortcut through the woods, and i lost my way
it was getting late, and i was scared and alone
then a kind old man took my hand and led me home
mama couldn't see him, but he was standing there
and i knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers
oh i believe there are angels among us
sent down to us from somewhere up above
they come to you and me in our darkest hour
to show us how to live, to teach us how to give
to guide us with a light of love
when life held troubled times, and had me down on my knees
there's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
a kind word from a stranger, to lend a helping hand
a phone call from a friend, just to say i understand
and ain't it kind of funny that at the dark end of the road
someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope
oh i believe there are angels among us
sent down to us from somewhere up above
they come to you and me in our darkest hour
to show us how to live, to teach us how to give
to guide us with a light of love
they wear so many faces, show up in the strangest places
to guide us with their mercy, in our time of need
oh i belive there are angels among us
sent down to us from somewhere up above
they come to you and me in our darkest hour
to show us how to live, to teach us how to give
to guide us with a light of love
to guide us with a light of love

so i just got finished putting the last touches on my collage that i am using as an example for my class for their big project. I LOVE it! i'm not gonna lie; it looks so cool. i'm not all that artistic but i think i did a great job especially for all my pics being in black and white...although it does add some symbolism to the collage as a whole. Not gonna go into explaining how i figure that. at least i know the true meaning and that's all that counts.

fun times during staff meetings.only way to explain it is through fragments so..stories of bridal dresses and getting kicked out of stores...one on ones with the boss...social interaction...schedules...evaluations...party planning..blushing.. everyone staring at me and poking fun at the reddish color i am apparently now styling while they try to figure out why i objected to a date for staff party... only all of this fun can be had during a peer counselor meeting.

so i'm hoping to actually get some new pictures sometime in the future. i hope that someone emails me halloween pics of my little bro and my nephew. My brother was harry potter this year and my nephew..oh the cute little darling was a monkey. i know that pictures do exist but on a digital camera? not too sure about that. maybe...well for those who have been commenting to me on my lack of pictures this semester, i will try to up production b/c i myself came to this realization when i did my collage...well night all! portuguese test in the manha

so i thought i would be tortured with studying all this weekend but as luck would have it, my professors changed due dates and now instead of having next week full of presentations and exams, they have been spread out. all i have next week is my astronomy test and portuguese test. not too bad; not too bad. i have at least an extra week for my presentation which isn't coming along as much as i wished but the extra time should help and my american lit class doesn't even meet next week! you don't know how awesome that really is. no 8am class! next week is my last astronomy lab ever! i just have my point out in a few weeks but hey, after that, no more astronomy lab for me!

As the month of november approaches, i can't help but feel anxious. November starts on tuesday. The countdowns will soon begin. thanksgiving/christmas holidays. oh i can't wait! i get to see my family and play with my nephew. i'm already setting babysitting dates;) get to see harry potter with my little brother even though i probably will see it here. it's a thing we do; we must see harry potter together and this time he is paying for me to go. i usually pay but this time it is his gift to me so it's gonna be great. i'm not gonna let him know that i've already seen it so i get to act like it's my first time to see it;) well, must go do my laundry and clean up...later all

grr..i just give up. stupid good for nothing computer. i just need a new one. i will start saving up on my own just in case my parents don't give me their computer so i can buy my own. i just need the actual computer. don't need a monitor,mouse or keyboard. Just the computer! argg...i've gone half a semester w/out one so i guess i can finish out the semester.

darn me and forgetting to take my camera. today was a tiring but fun day. went to The Edge's Fall Homecoming and i must say that it was freakingtabulous. cold, but great! froze...everyone froze but wow! once you got going and dancing and jumping, it all started warming up. and if any of that failed, nothing can beat going to the bathroom and using the hand dryers as heaters. I am so happy. it was my first concert and wow. Yellowcard, fallout boy and all american rejects..yea buddy! oh and we all decided that 30 seconds to mars is pretty good. There were many bands but those were my favorite. A great day although i will probably be sick when i wake up for class but it was well worth it.