so much to say. I know I found my old journals and could write in those but with so many ppl around the house it's too risky to have my notes out on paper. I just found out that my mom had read many of the things i wrote growing up when we were cleaning out one of the bedrooms that had tons of storage things including several of my notebooks and journals.
The summer has proven to be as I expected: good and bad. I love being home, don't get me wrong, but I can only take so much. I miss Arlington and the freedom I had there. I missed hanging out with my friends and their friends. Several friends have voiced the need for me to come back soon. I couldn't agree more but with the price of gas, that is becoming less and less likely to happen until August. Stephanie and Laura do keep me up with things. Stephanie text messages me during her free time as I am her only friend that lives on campus. We keep motivating one another to succeed. We both want to do what we planned on: both of us graduating next MAY!! oh yea, and having a fun time while we're at it. Her friends from Bedford and Tarlton are nice and I get along with them. I get along with some more than others.
some people just really ticked me off this yr. I don't know why I let it get to me but I did. Being ignored and then wiped away. It made me so mad. Maybe b/c I was told that everything was ok? I don't know. It is so hard to pin point when it really happened b/c apparently I don't know. I was too scared to talk to a mutual friend b/c I didn't want to put them in the middle of anything. Rather, I kept it in for the most part. I kept it in for months before I blew up. The sad thing is that I blew up to other people rather than confronting the person. well that's what happens when someone completely avoids you. I ended up having to explain myself. I just don't get it today. I even wrote a note to them hoping to get an answer but I never did. I saw her in the computer lab. It was right before finals and I was trying to write a paper. I know she looked right at me and kept walking. I just figured she was in a hurry and was trying to write her own paper. I was sure she just was caught up in her own thoughts. I didn't even believe the bologna I was feeding myself. It frustrated me so much that I found it hard to write. Then I saw her at graduation celebration. Looked right at her. She looked right at me. I know she saw me. and then she acted like I was nothing and looked the other way. I couldn't help but mutter a few curse words. That was the last I saw of her. It still gets at me just a bit. At least I still have some true friends.
well it's late and I am babysitting not only Josh but Roman is spending the night as well. Roman will want to wake up to watch Diego and Blues Clues. Oh curse Nick Jr!!! grrrr. At least he's adorable! lol. I love my nephew! he's a cutie. His brother may resemble him. I don't know. Xavier is always sleeping and hates light. anywho. gnight
The summer has proven to be as I expected: good and bad. I love being home, don't get me wrong, but I can only take so much. I miss Arlington and the freedom I had there. I missed hanging out with my friends and their friends. Several friends have voiced the need for me to come back soon. I couldn't agree more but with the price of gas, that is becoming less and less likely to happen until August. Stephanie and Laura do keep me up with things. Stephanie text messages me during her free time as I am her only friend that lives on campus. We keep motivating one another to succeed. We both want to do what we planned on: both of us graduating next MAY!! oh yea, and having a fun time while we're at it. Her friends from Bedford and Tarlton are nice and I get along with them. I get along with some more than others.
some people just really ticked me off this yr. I don't know why I let it get to me but I did. Being ignored and then wiped away. It made me so mad. Maybe b/c I was told that everything was ok? I don't know. It is so hard to pin point when it really happened b/c apparently I don't know. I was too scared to talk to a mutual friend b/c I didn't want to put them in the middle of anything. Rather, I kept it in for the most part. I kept it in for months before I blew up. The sad thing is that I blew up to other people rather than confronting the person. well that's what happens when someone completely avoids you. I ended up having to explain myself. I just don't get it today. I even wrote a note to them hoping to get an answer but I never did. I saw her in the computer lab. It was right before finals and I was trying to write a paper. I know she looked right at me and kept walking. I just figured she was in a hurry and was trying to write her own paper. I was sure she just was caught up in her own thoughts. I didn't even believe the bologna I was feeding myself. It frustrated me so much that I found it hard to write. Then I saw her at graduation celebration. Looked right at her. She looked right at me. I know she saw me. and then she acted like I was nothing and looked the other way. I couldn't help but mutter a few curse words. That was the last I saw of her. It still gets at me just a bit. At least I still have some true friends.
well it's late and I am babysitting not only Josh but Roman is spending the night as well. Roman will want to wake up to watch Diego and Blues Clues. Oh curse Nick Jr!!! grrrr. At least he's adorable! lol. I love my nephew! he's a cutie. His brother may resemble him. I don't know. Xavier is always sleeping and hates light. anywho. gnight
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