mandey's world

so i am begining to wonder about myself. i'm supposed to be a role model to my brother, cousin and a number of freshmen but am i really? i don't feel like i am in any way. i feel like i fall utterly short on that part. you're not supposed to give into peer pressure. When i tell my cousin something is stupid and she shouldn't be doing it and then i turn around a few days later and consider doing the one thing i told her was dumb. hypocritical. At least i haven't followed through b/c i have some great friends who noticed my weakness and became my strength. sometimes i wonder how my life would have been had i not been so 'responsible' and had been quite a bit more 'social' and apt to trying things throughout high school and even into college. Could i be happier? livelier? i guess i'll never know b/c i am follow the rules mandey who does very few illegal things. let's see how times change.

i doubt anyone ever reads this anymore b/c myspace is just so much easier to navigate and you can do many different things on there. maybe this is turning more into a personal thing again. I don't want to get rid of this b/c it took me so long to develop it:( i pride myself on it.

right now i really should be writing some html in class but i don't feel like it. I'll just do it on my own time and send it in to him. haha.

This weekend was soooo awesome! Thursday night i met up with some best buy people in dallas and we had a great time at dave and busters. fun times in the car with stephanie and the fear of being pulled over with things in the car that we shouldn't have had.:) gosh, that girl is so freaking awesome. I really miss having her in our department but at least she's moving on up:)we have a great time when we hang out. i so wish i didn't have to go to class or work on friday otherwise i would have taken off for a few days on a trip w/her..darn. Friday night was spent over at arbor oaks with laura and katie. fun drinks and good times. The only bummer was having to wake up at 7am saturday for work but i did it anyways. Saturday night was pretty good but not as fun as the other nights. I really do like smaller groups. Not that it was bad b/c it wasn't. Last night was oh so funny and great. once i finally got off of work went to bennigans with some people from work. after talking for a while we headed over to one of the guys' house to hang out. we did a lot of talking. many truths seem to come out. all and all a great night. More best buy outings are in the works.

I really wish i could hangout with some people but we just can't get it all set up and we are wayyyy too busy. at least i see some of them around from time to time:) Well it's monday and my weekend of no worries is over. i have so many things due this week that it's not even funny. back to reality. back to school, back to educ. 1131, back to selling cameras...