I'll regret this later but...
I really miss my little brother sooo much! you don't understand how much i long to hear his sarcastic voice crack a joke at me(which he can do quite well). there are many reasons why i feel this need to just let it out but mainly b/c his birthday is next week. i don't want to do anything on that day; seriously...if i didn't have to go to english and a meeting, then i would literally sit in my room all day waiting for 3 pm to roll around so i could call him and talk to him. This is his first birthday i won't be there for him. It's a really big deal b/c my mom and i were the one's always there to celebrate his birthday. i remember in the 9th grade, my mom pulled me out of school early to have our own little party for him, just the three of us. last year b/c i was going to TFA State on his birthday, the night before, i took him to eat and play...i let him stay up late (shh..don't let my momma know that;)) and then the next morning, i drove him to school and sat out there with him until he had to go in and told him how much i loved him. this year, i can only send wishes over the phone and by mail.:( i know sometimes i give him a hard time, but he's my saving grace. my angel sent down from heaven. i don't know what i'd be without him. he's my closest sibling and i am overly protective of him. when his dog died when he was 5 i seriously wanted to tell him that she was stolen b/c you could see the pain and it tore me up inside that i couldn't ease it one bit. gosh i love that little boy to death. Here's to you my little pest of a brother.
