mandey's world

well...i left trinity for like a whole hr. today;) oh yea...well now i kinda regret it, but sleeping in was a really good thing for me. ok, gotta tell this story...well i get up at 7 to go set up for free donuts downstairs. christy asks if i will stay down there and monitor it to make sure guys don't just walk off w/a dozen of the krispy creams or anything crazy like that..i agree of course...so i lay down on the couch and am watching i love lucy..yep fun times..mind you, i don't have my contacts on. so i just see blurs on the screen and blurs of people...then the tony danza talk show comes on..yea, i fell asleep...wake up like at 9:15 and see julie getting some donuts...talk to her for a bit and then people start coming back from tests...everyone said that they saw me sleeping and were wondering how long i had been there. lol...delila..aww delila...she said that she was wondering if i'd still be sleeping when she got back..she seemed a little disappointed? lol...i finally go up to my room like at 10 and take a shower:) i combed my hair, and then fell back to sleep:) when i woke up, i proceeded to put my hair in a pony tail...it was sooo soft!! but of course curly...but my hair..aww...so soft..lol mandey decided to start cleaning the room today...got things all done and basically other than that was really REALLY laZy..thought oh wells; i'll go to the office tomorrow! ha..righht...my bro comes to my room like at 4:30 and the first thing he says is "we're leaving tomorrow" i attempt to reason w/him b/c of course i have the rest of the week all planned out...he goes "well i am leaving tomorrow with or w/out you...if you want to stay here..fine but how you'll get home is beyond me" dang i hate him for that! well not hate..that word is way too strong. i am angry w/him..yep so i am driving out tomorrow at noon...mixed feelings about that. i do want to go home. truely i do but i love my life here. i am like a guest in lubbock..it's not the same as it used to be. umm...will be very interesting seeing old friends. i have really changed since may..yea, may was really the last time i saw anyone...but i am a completely different person than i was 6 months ago. Some of them will be shocked..usually when something about me would change, i would attempt to mask it but now? there's no hiding me...it's different..i have learned so much and grown so much. i can't pretend to be someone i most definately am not. if they hate me for who i truely am, it's not my fault. i just want to be real. i thank all of my friends here that accept me for who i am and put up w/all my crap. i just don't know if people back home will ever be able to do the same..maybe i'm underestimating them? but in so many ways i can feel that i'm not. don't know how things will turn out there...well i hope that everyone has a good and safe holiday..since i didn't get to say bye like i had planned, i am sending goodbyes and hugs through here...i will be on the internet mostly when i'm home but of course i have to share w/at least 4 other people...hopefully i will get to talk to you sometime..if not i will see yal in january! can everyone please keep my family in your prayers..we would very much appreciate it...:hugs all aroung: one month..it's just one month..lol..;)